"The problem with heavenly rewards is that we don't see the fulfillment now. But the Glory that is to be revealed to us is much greater even than our present satisfaction. That's the promise God gives us. And we may not recognize that when things don't go our way, but the promise is still there. It's always there. Through every disappointment, every suffering, every hardship. We must not forgot that God is God, and He will never break His promise."At the time I wrote that, I believe I was upset that I didn't get a job that I wanted. Now, that hardship seems trivial compared to what has been endured since that post was written on January 19th. Granted, I would not say that my life has been miserable since then, but sometimes things happen that completely overshadow other problems. I see now how God used His infinite wisdom and eternal view of my life to prepare me for what I was to encounter in life over the past few months. The disappoint I felt for not getting that job in January taught me things I would need in order to endure more difficult situations.
I have prayed at several different times lately that God would teach and reteach me to trust Him. Every time, He has been faithful. Although even now as I write this I am worried about paying off debts and making enough money to get by on my own, God is reminding me that He is there. He is showing me that He uses difficulties to teach us and help us grow.
Right now, God is blessing me richly in many, many ways, and I am so thankful. I have received over $6700 to go to seminary for the upcoming academic year. I only received this because God continues to graciously give me things I don't deserve. I only pray that I will remember his promises when hard times come around again. But I have seen His faithfulness, and that makes trusting Him all the easier.
