"Trust" continued...

Isaiah 55:8-9
 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
       neither are your ways my ways,"
       declares the LORD.
 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
       so are my ways higher than your ways
       and my thoughts than your thoughts."

It is becoming more apparent to me that God takes great joy in revealing this to us. Not by revealing His ways to us, but rather by helping us accept that we have such a minimal understanding.  As God continues to show me that I can trust Him, I am learning that "trusting Him" means something completely different than what I think it means.  So, before I can truly trust Him, I have to relearn what that even means.

As part of my nature, I like to know why I am doing something.  If I am given a task at work, I like to know what it will accomplish.  If I have an assignment for a class, and I feel there is no purpose to it, I will often get frustrated and lack motivation to complete it.  What I am starting to learn is that God may call us to do things, and we may not even know why.  The hardest thing, I am finding, is to trust God through these experiences.

This completely changes my idea of what it means to trust Him.  I am starting to find that He may or may not reveal to me the ultimate purpose behind things He has called me to do.  I may not find out "why" until much later.

It would be much harder to trust God in times like this if He had not already showed me all the ways that I can trust Him.  He has been faithful thus far, so can I trust Him at times when I do not know what the outcome will be? Can I be faithful to what He has called me to even if it is not what I expect?

Anxiety and worry can plague any one of us, no matter who we are or what we do.  Trusting God, it seems, does not mean a lack of worry.  It means worrying, but trusting God anyways.  Surely we will have fears for the future, or uncertainties about the direction of our lives.  If we did not have these fears, what need would we have for trusting God?

Several people have been quoted saying something like "Courage is not the lack of fear, but triumph over it."  I would submit that trust in God is not the lack of worry.  It is looking our uncertainties in the face and saying "I may be afraid of you, but I know Someone who has an understanding far beyond mine. And I trust Him, even through He has not revealed His ways to me."